Tonight was super.... I saw aaron at taco bell and we ran up to him while he was at the drive through and he started yelling at the speaker. and then i saw nick there to. and it felt good to actuallty see so many people from the crew in one night.. Like erica and b-ryan. And there was something in the air until i got home and my mom was fighting with my dad and this escalated of course to my sister fighting with my mom. right now actually. which is so much fun, wanna hang out and watch. hold on my mom is crying. gotta hug her. Things can be so sad sometimes when nobdy is looking. I hate it. and you know who's on my mind right now? Kyle. for some reason i really miss that kid. he's still around, but in a lotta ways i feel like he's completly gone forever. And i really hate some things. and i hate how i worry. i hate how i think people are gunna kill me. and the way that they yell and the way the she thinks she does nothing wrong. I'm still so lonely. it's funny how this entry was intended to be a happy one, but it turned out like this. i think i have problems. not just the melodrantic kind that kind that live in your brain and periodically stab your face from the inside of your skull. I need prozac for sure. my pschologist said that might be the option. And by the way. do i even think anyone is going to read this. i am so pathtic. I need instructions: someone tell me how to feel alive.

.Find me.Save me.

Blink 182: I'm so lost. i'm barely here. i wish i could explain myself but words escape me...